El Fin : \

So this is it? Omg if I am getting emotional over my last blog entry, I am going to be a hot mess at graduation. This past year has been amazing for me. I have legit learned a lot about myself. I'm not dumb enough to say I'm done with that though. I am looking forward to college because of all the new stuff I am going to discover. The possibilites are soooo...present. It is kind of scary in a way. Not the opportunites but the fact that I don't want to miss out on any. Ok, I'm beginning to ramble, so let's take it back.

Me at the end is a very different person. I'm thinking of me in the beginning of high school....ew. I am not exactly a big fan of old me. I regret some things, but I've moved past them and come to terms. I've learned though. They can't take that away from me.

Am I the only one that doesn't feel like I am a senior? Or that I am going to prom? Or I am about to graduate? And start college? It still hasn't really sunken in yet. These were all things that seemed like a distant future that would never ever come, but it is only like a week away. I kind of don't want it to come. I've noticed that sometimes the best thing about a major event is the anticipation, the excitement preceding that event. Because when it's gone, it never seems as important or amazing.

I guess I can hope that it will be this time. Class of 2011/Best philosophy class ever!!! I love you guys :))

What up

Dear Prospective Philosophy Student:
　
First off, Class of 2011 is thee best class.

Second, Mr. McCarthy isn’t teaching Philosophy next year so that really sucks for you. Not to kiss up but he really did make the class memorable for me.

Ok, the actual blog can start now. Well, I still recommend taking philosophy even though Mr. McCarthy won’t be there next year. It is still really beneficial. It is one of the few classes where I had to legit think. And not just think about stupid irrelevant stuff but things that can eventually help you better yourself. You may not realize it as it is happening, but trust me, by the end of the year, you will see a change. However, you actually have to put in some effort. You can’t expect to get anything out of the class if you just sleep all the time. Good luck J

When I grow up, I wanna be a catepillar

“I said that?” was probably my mantra for this past year because this past year has been a time of reminiscing. A lot of, “hey, remember that time…” I am surprised by much of the stuff I have said at a given moment. I used to not really think before I spoke. It was something I used to be proud of but now, not so much. I’m not ashamed of all of it at all, not by a long shot. Sometimes one needs to be spontaneous. However, I have realized that a little thought won’t take away any authenticity, and I can avoid sounding ignorant or just plain dumb.

It is just a part of growing up I guess except you never stop growing. Each year I used to think I got this life thing conquered and that I cannot possibly make another stupid mistake like the one I made last year. Oh was I wrong.

Surrounded by Cuckoos, but I Was the Crazy One

But I am the crazy one. What makes someone crazy and how does someone have the ability to discern what is crazy? In One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, the Acutes didn’t seem very crazy, or at least, what we consider crazy. Whenever I think of crazy, I think of someone babbling nonsense and gesticulating wildly…(kind of like our philosophy class jk). The guys in the book just had little glitches, but I wouldn’t lock them away.

Society is so accustomed to a status quo that crazy is used to describe anyone that doesn’t fit into it. I usually stay pretty open-minded to people. It takes a lot to shock me. Whenever there is a story about some woman that snaps and kills her husband, I think, yea I can see that. Does that make me the crazy one?

Together forever...or not really jk

Well, the first thing I thought of upon hearing the word together is my boyfriend. But I am not going to put the sacred details of my relationship on my blog for philosophy. I feel like there’s a more appropriate venue elsewhere.

The second thing I thought of was the end of high school. It came by so fast and all these relationships with people have just become something taken for granted. I have come to the realization that I will never see more than half the people I talk to ever again. It has already begun to happen. I have already drifted apart from some and became closer with others. It’s just a never ending cycle. I cried at my eighth grade graduation because I was going to miss my friends. I only talk to one of them now. Yea, I’m going to miss a lot of people, but I can’t let it upset me. Time heals everything.

The people I do keep in my life, I know will be those who I am genuinely connected with. I really can’t wait to move on and start something new. The opportunity and unpredictability of college is what I look forward to.

All by myself, Don't wanna be all by myself...

Alone…It’s hard to feel completely alone nowadays. Communication with others is always within arms length so long as I have my phone. At school, I’m constantly talking to my friends or teachers. At home, I’m with family, At work, I have to be a people-pleaser. However, after days filled with being social, I do feel the urge to be alone.

I’ve noticed recently that my patience for people has decreased a lot. I think it’s because I have to deal with difficult people all day at work. It becomes very tiring. I just want to get in a comfortable place and read or play video games or something relaxing. Some days I just want to curl up in a ball under my blankets. No, I’m not depressed or an anti-social person. I just love having some time to myself to think and wind down after a long day. The only thing is, I hate being alone when I don’t want to be. I like to stick to a healthy balance. If one is alone too much, it is impossible to benefit from interaction with others. On the other hand, solitude is necessary to develop an individual identity.

Save the Earth, Do This!

Save the Earth! We need to recycle, eat organically, and drive less. I can check none of those off my list. It’s not that I don’t care about the Earth and nature and stuff. I just feel like those will only help to beautify it. I don’t know much about global warming, so this is nowhere close to being an expert opinion. I actually welcome someone calling me out on this. There would have to be bigger change like whole civilizations altering lifestyles that have been used for decades. People don’t react well to change either.

I don’t know. I’m not sure how I feel about this topic. I will say this. I would do anything to save the Earth for this guy.